December 2009
49 posts
I’ve grown okay with being alone. It seems to be the only place that I can be myself anymore. It’s the only place I can really let myself feel, the only place that I can truly be who I am. Because I don’t think who I am is who anyone wants me to be anymore. I feel like I’m running myself ragged trying to please everyone, but where is that really getting me? I don’t...
Bold all the things you’ve done in 2009.
Did something you said you would never do.
Paid for someone who said they would pay you back but never did.
Lied about where you were.
Discovered a new musician.
Made something for a friend.
Got a new phone.
Got a new iPod/Zune/Mp3 player.
Watched three or more episodes of Saturday Night Live.
Made fun of someone.
Created a Tumblr.
Flew on a plane for the first time.
Spoke...
I guess it’s just the little things that bother me. The fact that when everyone else is on the phone inside the house, i’m all alone trying to find something to do besides think. When everyone else is picking out presents for the one they love, talking about them with a gleam in their eye. Even when they tell me about the problems their boyfriend has caused, or what a jerk he is, a...
Isn’t it funny how no matter how large a christmas tree is, you always have that favorite ornament? The one that makes you smile when you see it. Sometimes I like to think of ornaments as metaphors for the chances that i take in life, the experiences I have. If i don’t take a chance, how will I ever really be sure that I didn’t miss out on anything? If i don’t try, how will...
“JUST STOP!” I want to scream from the top of my lungs. I want things to be okay. I want this massive mess to be cleaned up. I want to be okay again. My heart races and my stomach churns when I think of how much I have changed in just a short period of time. I want to go back. I don’t want to be the one that is tired all the time, the one that is quiet, scared. Most of the time...
Dear Kevin Jonas,
congrats on your marriage. I hope you bring eachother light in the darkest of times, and i hope she continues to make you the happiest man in the world. You truly deserve it.
I’m alone in the house, but I don’t mind. Being alone gives me time to think about things that other people don’t understand about me. Things that I don’t understand about myself. Things like the fact that I keep waiting for someone to come along that is the perfect piece of my life’s puzzle. The person that will come along and change my world forever. The boy that...
sometimes i wish that i could capture the simplicity of you. the way your smile makes my heart melt, and the way that you say my name takes my breath from me.
i wish i could take a picture that holds all the beauty that i see everytime i look at your face. I wish it could show the way that you look at me, the way that you treat everyone you encounter with kindness and caring.
I wish that i could...
The house is silent as i sit and contemplate. The only sound is the fan above my head and the tiny clicks of keys. My thoughts are louder than the noises that surround me. Thoughts of him. Thoughts of who I am when I’m around him. My heart is convincing me that this is all just a silly, unrequited crush, but my brain keeps going back to the tiny thought of, what if it isn’t just...
Watchi love it.
